2am- 3am

It's 2am something, goin to be 3am soon. Preparing to sleep and need to wake up early in the morning. I have class tomorrow at 9am. My schooling time still not too bad, at least not 8am. What if it's 8am ? Arghh......I feel hatred to wake up dat early. Why am I still here, holding my another small, mini size lappie with the light off, sitting on bed blogging these futile post. I dunno, I just feel I'm so directionless at this moment. Man, I'm just having insommia rite now, I can't get to sleep tonite!!?? What happen to me ? I wander......grrrr, I'm hungry :(

Am i wandering about my ownself ? Yes, I am ! I'm just so imperfect.... I grumble so much......so much to say but just unexplainable. Dont ask me why ? I will never ever know what to answer you as me, my ownself have no idea either. Get what I mean here? haha... I doubt no one knows. I'm just blogging rubbish anyway... allow me to do that once in a blue moon.

Hmm..... let's talk about my nick name is msn --- Miss fragile. Why did I put that as my nick. I may look fragile yet my inner is strong. I may look tough yet my inner is easily heartbroken. Which one resemblance me ? Actually both ...kind of ironic rite ? Seriously I'm super good in tolerance. I'm not trying to compliment my ownself dat how good am I. The fact is I can tolerate in everything, I dun mind bad things happen to me. I always give that glimpse of smile....to tell myself... everything will be fine. Will this person realize it? Will this person care bout me? Being so nice, so kind, will u ever notice? Worthwhile ? No one wants to feel invisible rite? so do I. Just in 5 mins time, or maybe 10 mins, my heart is bleeding painfully. Aspirins are not effective on me. But I'll just let it be..................

Kinda tired now....time to try my best to sleep but still have lots of questions on my mind.... do bare with my inlogical, stupidity me. nite nite !!!